So Out of Left Field.... *smh*

So, yes I have been missing from my blog the last few days. In those days, life here in my little corner of the world has really has been a whirlwind. You know how you have a plan for the future. You plan around things you are sure are solid. Then out of left field, here comes a life changers. I know I am being rather vague about what is going on, but that has a lot to do with the fact that I am not sure where I go from here.

On a positive point, I had a job interview today. I was so nervous about the interview, I got there 45 minutes early. *smiles*  I spent 30 minutes of that hanging out at Jack in the Box. I figured maybe some food would settle my upset stomach. It helped a little, and it got my mind off of how nervous I was. Then i headed over to the office. I always try to be 10 to 15 minutes early for everything. Especially job interviews. I started to gt nervous again when I got to the office and I was one of seven people waiting for interviews. It ended up being not as bad as I thought. One other person was there interviewing for the same position as I was. I started to get calmed and comfortable again, and then it went all crazy.

Crazy? Yes it went crazy. I introduced myself and we started the interview, and all seemed to be going quite good. Then he asked me about the pentagram on the inside of my wrist. OH HELL. I had meant to wear long sleeves. Not because I am ashamed of my tattoo, but more so this doesn't happen. What happen you ask? Suddenly, my interview went from questions about the job and my qualifications, to him asking me about my religious beliefs. He asked me if the tattoo was something to do with the devil. I told him of course not, and that it was a pagan spiritual symbol. Asked again about the devil because i said pagan. I once again said no it was nothing to do with the devil. He asked what pagan was then. I then had to explain that pagan is any religion that is not christian. Buddhist. Hindu. Native American. He then asked if I believed in God.

Okay, at this point i was really starting to get a little upset. What does my spiritual beliefs have to do with me answering phones at a private security company? NOTHING, but I wasn't going to loose my cool. I told him I believe in many gods not just one. He tells me he is Christian and believes in Jesus Christ. He asked what i was. I told him that I was spiritual. This seem to confuse him, so he asked where i attended church. I told him I didn't believe in organized religion of any kind. He really didn't like my answer. Then he told me he wasn't trying to put me on the spot he just wanted to understand. He told me that people are going to ask me what it means. He is right people have asked me what it means. I give them the best answer for the situation, and I felt a job interview was not the right time to say it is a pagan symbol to express that I am a practicing Witch. As i could tell he would not understand the difference between being a Witch and worshiping the devil.

He seem to realize that this was not somewhere the interview should be going, and he went back to talking about the job and my qualifications. The rest of the interview was okay. They called me back for another interview, but I told them that the way the interview was handled I would not be comfortable working for them. I was a little bummed out since this was only my second interview in the last four months, but I knew that job wouldn't be a good fit for me.

I was right. Not long after I told them I was no longer interested in working for them, I got another call. A much better job that paid more. It is a job I have always wanted, and it doesn't hurt that is just a couple blocks from my best friends work. I have an interview tomorrow afternoon at 2:30PM. I am really excited. Just the short conversation I had on the phone, she really seemed to like me. She said  I sounded like a perfect fit.

So, even just today was a roller coaster ride, but isn't that the fun part. I mean i don't actually like to ride a real coaster. I just think if there was no adventure in life, what fun would it be? How would we know when life was actually good if we had never had it really bad? Most of all, would we appreciate what we have it we didn't have to work for it?

Keeping my eye on the ball. Hoping to hear a lot of good news over the next week, and in the mean time I will just enjoy life at this moment.

What comes with spring??? If you live in the desert, it's bugs.

I do a full body shiver thinking about it. When I moved to the Las Vegas area, our house had just been sprayed for bugs. I figured this was just a common thing for our property management company to fumigate a house prior to new tenants. Actually it seems, it is a regular thing to fumigate several times a year hear. I am use to Colorado, where unless you live out in the country, you don't have a bug problem unless you are dirty people. So imagine my distress, as spring hit full force, at seeing rather large roaches in my backyard. Doing another shiver.

I immediately started reading up on natural ways to get rid of bugs. I wasn't sure about doing chemicals because we have a dog that is occasionally outside. Yes, occasionally, because he hates being outside, and I didn't want to expose him to something. Then things changed. What changed you ask? I saw a bug in my house. My very worst nightmare, bugs in my house. I'm not a germ-a-fobe, but it was a bug. Not just a bug, it was roach. With that change, Terminix was called, and they will be here tomorrow.

Of course, with finding a bug in my house i went into full blown cleaning spree. I mean I clean everyday, but I went over everything. I moved everything, and watching to see if I came across anymore horrible bugs. I did find two more smaller dead bugs under the couch by the front door. I was looking at the door and saw that the weather stripping was gaping. That is probably the way it got in. As I walked around the house today, I kept looking half expecting to see another bug. Thank goodness I didn't see anything, but the bug guy can't get hear soon enough.

With that stress in the back of my mind, I been in a good mood all day. I slept in a little late, and then spent the rest of the day cleaning. Now, I am taking a little time to catch up on some digital communications. I went over the course materials for my college class that starts the end of May, and made sure I had everything I needed. I am so excited to take an actual college art class. I will be stepping outside my normal art mediums, and normally I would be so worried. Instead of worry or nervousness, I am looking forward to learning something new to create a new form of art. On top of that, I have an interview tomorrow morning for a job. I  don't expect to get the job, but I am just happy that I have an interview. I have decided that after so long out of the workforce, just getting an interview is an accomplishment. At first, when I got an interview and didn't get the job I would be crushed. Now, I am happy that I was even considered. I figure when I am meant to have a job, I will get a job.

This happiness is a nice transition to my next topic. My weight. I have read a lot of articles on weight loss, and one thing that I scoffed at was when they said weight loss is mental not just physical. It is a physical change you make. Change the foods you eat. Change the amount and way you exercise. How can it be mental. The most recent article said your weight loss is actually tied to your mental state. They said the happier you are, the better your weight loss will be. As I read this, I still was thinking thought 'what a load of bull'. What made me think about this was my recent weight gain and then sudden loss. I didn't change anything about how I eat or exercise. I couldn't figure out how I lost the weight. Then I started thinking about my attempts at weight loss. Almost every time I attempted weight loss, I was depressed and unhappy. The more the weight loss didn't work, the more depressed I got. Yet, recently I had decided to stop worrying about the little things, and just started seeing the positive in everything. Could the difference really be as easy as my mood change? You know what? I think it really can be that easy. I'm sure there are a ton of technical jargon i could say that would support this, but I am going with positive mind makes things happen.

Could you get any better news? Because you are happy and looking at that silver lining, you are boosting your body to burn more calories. Because you are burning those calories more efficiently, you are seeing actual weight loss for the first time in a long time. Because you are having actual weight loss, you are even happier. It is a never ending circle of wonderful. I am feeling so happy and amazed at how life can keep changing in such a positive way. No, I am not saying that the only reason I am happy is because I am loosing weight. I actually gave up on loosing weight and started to just accept that I would never drop the extra weight. It took a really frank talk with my husband to show me that it was me putting conditions on his love for me. It was only me that thought he loved me less because i have gotten older and gained weight. Everyone in my life has always pointed out how flawed or broken I am, until I met my husband. He has spent over 15 years telling and showing me that i am the most perfect me that I could be.

Okay, I'm not perfect, but I don't want to be. If I was perfect, the journey would be over. One of the big parts of life is self improvement. It can also be one of the most fun, once you let go and just enjoy. I love making improvements to me and my life. I love seeing the changes in myself.

And now, I plan on making the next 40 years even better than the last 40 years.

What a great way to start a day.....

I woke up this morning to two great emails. You see every few months I apply for jobs. I haven't worked for the most of the last 15 years. I figured with my kids getting older, a job would give me something to do and a little extra cash never hurt. The first email was for an executive assistant job and the other was an intern for a local artist. I applied for the executive assistant job the end of January, so I was quite surprised when I got an email back from them this morning. It would be a great job. So, i scheduled my phone interview for Tuesday morning. Now the intern job, getting that email made me shriek like a little girl when I saw it. You see i was watching local PBS last night, and they were doing a special on local artist. The did an interview with Steven Liguori. He is an amazing artist, and has several art instillation around town. He was also commissioned to create a memorial to the high scalers who helped build Hoover Dam. On a whim last night, I found his website and sent an email asking if they ever hire interns. I woke up to an email from Steven himself. He told me they did, and asked me to send my resume. I really cant stop smiling. What a great way to wake up. Just more proof that when you focus on the good, life really does improve.

I just wanted to share my happy morning news with you all. I hope you all have a great weekend.